103.4 Temp:((

Just when I thought it could not get any worse. Our little man spiked a fever of 103.4 after we had started the antibiotics. He was pitiful, crying, moaning, and just miserable. It is so hard to see your baby in pain. I wish I was sick instead of him. Oh, and he has been having lots of diarrhea and now has a horrible diaper rash. He has never had a bad diaper rash and it is so painful for our precious baby. Finally, the temperature went down, and he had a rough night. Meaning Nate and I still got little to no sleep. I feel guilty because I had to leave my sick baby and come to work today. I just wish I was there to comfort him and take care of him. Instead, I am taking care of all the other sick kiddos with cancer. I know they need me just as much as Hunter. I am feeling overwhelmed and very emotional lately caring for all these sick kids. I love them so much, but it is easier to relate to the parents after you become one and more emotional then before. Pray for our little nugget and all my patients.